unworthy of His grace

tylersaldana:

i don’t feel deserving of Your grace this morning. it’s foolish to say so, but You know my heart. the countless years of wrestling with and giving into the same sin have left me with only feelings of guilt and shame. to be honest, there are days where i have a difficult time believing that You could ever forgive everything that i have done, every thought that i’ve had, every word that i’ve said. often, i think that i’m not good enough for Your grace and mercy. in reality, this is true.

is that not what grace is? You give us that which we in no way deserve. 

is that not what mercy is? You withhold from us that which we do deserve. 

is this not the exact state that You long for us, breaking us to our very core only to rebuild us in You?

would You restore to the joy that stems from and is rooted solely in Your wondrously rich salvation? i plead with You, God. give me a new passion for who You are and for what You have done and for what You are doing and for what You will do.

“Restore in me the joy of Your salvation…”

-David, Psalm 51.12a